Crossroad
Mood:  incredulous
Now Playing: Linkin Park
Have you ever noticed how some people think that they have to be "above" everyone else to be happy? It defeats their purpose really when you think about it, because all that it reveals is their own jealousy, and envy. I think being in competition with someone all the time exhausts you and in the end it will cause your own unhappiness, because no matter how hard you try, no matter how hard you work to be better, all people are different and their goals in life and their ideas of happiness are different in so many ways. I know that some people think that happiness comes from materialistics such as money, cars, houses, a "daddy" for their children, etc. but I believe that true happiness starts inside, with YOURSELF. You see, if your in competition with someone else all the time, then deep down inside you are insecure about who you are as a person. I have found that most of the time people who do this are angry at the people they're "idolizing" because they feel that they have caused their mistakes in their life or that they have wronged them in some way, when in actuality they're insecurities and doubts about who they are caused their life to go in that direction, not to mention their OWN ACTIONS. See, I have come to a crossroad in my life where I understand that life isnt about materialistics, or the "perfect image" or the mistakeless marriage or family. I can accept my insecurities, my mistakes, my families mistakes, and I love myself regardless of my flaws, and I will NEVER let anyone make me feel inadequate again.